December 2010
You know, I don’t even know what I want. I bet I’m going to regret this.
Day 05, A time where you considered ending your...
When I was a freshman, I was a depressed little emo kid, as I’ve said in other posts. I hated myself, and I thought that because I couldn’t get the one guy I wanted that I would never ever find love and be happy, I thought there was always going to be someone better than me. I was suicidal because I thought I was going to be alone forever. Sounds stupid, right? Thinking that when I was...
Maybe this isn’t so good, but right now I’m happy. We’ll just have to see what becomes of this. I’m glad we talked, finally. Even if nothing really got solved haha.
Am I supposed to make something of this mess that is my head? Because I don’t see that happening anytime soon.
Do you love..
Eating a brownie and a half, then smoking a blunt of California medical, being the highest you’ve ever been, going to sleep at 4am, waking up at 3pm still kinda high and making yourself two peanut butter and nutella sandwiches? Because I do.
“Dream a little dream of me..”
I honestly can’t wait to get the fuck out of high school. I’ve never belonged there, and thankfully I never will. The sole reason I want out so badly is because I’ll never have to see or hear about all of the stupid little fake cunts that think they’re so cool to be taking all sorts of drugs and fucking as many people as they can. I don’t understand why people try so...
If it makes you less sad I will die by your hand I hope you find out what you want I already know what I am And if it makes you less sad We’ll start talking again And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am I’ll grow old And start acting my age I’ll be a brand new day In a life that you hate A crown of gold A heart that’s harder than stone And it...
“This love, this heart, this is waking up.”
I don’t like that I’ve got nothing to do tonight. I wanna have the money to buy cigarettes, I hate my life. Also, I really really really wanna get high. A goooooood high, not mids high. I haven’t smoked goodshit in almost a month now and I hate it so much. All I want it some delicious dank.
I really just have to get this out of my system.
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See? Being civil isn’t that hard! Also, always putting me in a good mood :) I wonderrrrrrrrr whats gonna happen next
lwillfuckyou replied to your post: Ridiculously good mood. Got hugged and told I was…
I’m guessing he did the same thing he did to me to you? Typical. Can we kill him now?
I mean, I don’t have any problem with him. I don’t think it’s the same thing cause I haven’t heard him or anyone else say he hates me. But Jon Johnson did say “Sorry you have to hang out...
Looks like instead of taking a nap I’ve gotta make a batch or two of brownies! :)
Ridiculously good mood. Got hugged and told I was loved first thing in school this morning :) School was super easy, watched videos and shit. This week is going to be so easy, I love it. And now I get to go take a nap :) Soooooooo many happy.
Also, I’ve decided that if you don’t wanna be civil and be friends then I guess we won’t be. If we’re gonna be in the same room, and...
“Two turtle Jones, and a Josh Jones in a Josh Jones!”
I hate that I can’t get as high as I used to anymore. About 3 bowlpacks and a blunt of green crack and my high only lasted like, an hour or so. I hate it. Maybe I’ll stop smoking cause everyone else wants to anyway. So excited to just sleep. I haven’t really slept in so long. Shooting for a good 10 hours or so. Just sayin’.
Also, you’re making everything...
ROBERT FUCKING PATTINSON
WHY THE FUCK MUST YOU KILL EVERYTHING I LOVE. IF YOU FUCK UP JACOB JANKOWSKI I WILL PERSONALLY SEE TO YOUR DEATH. Also, Reese Witherspoon is 10,000% wrong for Marlena. Let’s hope she can pull it off. Otherwise excited to see Water For Elephants, even if ALL of the casting is wrong.
I just wanna go play in the snow, but no one else wants to with me :( I need a car.
Maybe I’ve been too quick to judge you. I haven’t heard all sides of this story. No matter what I say when I’m angry, you’re my dad, and I’ll always love you.
Day 04 Your views on religion
I don’t know if I believe in God, and I’m quite ok with believing in nothing. I don’t need enlightenment. Some religions have really interesting ideals and perspectives though, maybe when I’m older I’ll settle down into one. But honestly, I could could do without the christian church trying to shove their ideals down everyone’s throat. I know not all Christians...
I wish I could smoke in my house, or that I had a laptop so i could have a cig and write on tumblr at the same time.
You know, I really only have one regret, and it’s that I couldn’t grow the balls to talk to you last year. I say I don’t regret anything because it made me who I am and shit, but I feel like I’d still be me if I’d said something, the only difference is I would’ve had you. Maybe I wouldn’t smoke cigarettes either.
BE LESS CONSIDERATE, I DARE YOU.
I’m probably gonna go have a cigarette and punch a couple things in the face. Why am I so irritatedddddd
So a neutron walks into the bar and asks the bartender how much it is for a beer. The bartender says “For you? No charge.” I lol’d. hard.
I may have given up on the other 30 day things, but I like this one. Italics meaning I don’t have a picture of thatttt I don’t know if I have this many pictures!
#1: A picture of you in your room
#2: A picture of you posing with someone you don’t actually like
#3: A picture with a former crush
#4: A picture of you very drunk
#5: A picture of you with a parent or two.
#6: A...
I need some money, and fast. Two more concerts coming up that I don’t know how I’m going to pay for, OHTS’s final show on the 22nd at recher, then Tokyo Police Club and Two Door Cinema Club sometime in January. Looks like I have to start selling my organs.
Shannon: …I do not want any of your haggard ass weed ball brownies.I was just telling Pat that I’d rather have a smoke session than eat a brownie
Kelsey: THEY AREN’T HAGGARDASS SHUDDUP JST AND SHOE SAID THEY STILL TASTED GOOD.
Shannon: They were just being nice. xD
OH HEY MY NAMES SHANNON WINTERDICK AND I LIKE POSTING THINGS KELSEY SAYS ON TUMBLR.
just sayin’.
Batch 3, a successful failure! a couple burnt brownies and a house full of smoke, but I made some money for once! :)
“Say goodnight,
Mean goodbye.
I know you think my life
Will stop when...”
– The Get Up Kids are my shit sometimes.
I can’t even keep up with you anymore.
How I became me, part1
While writing a few of my senior memory book entries, I thought of a lot of things that made me who I am today that I can’t really write for my memory book because they may not be “school appropriate.” Where else can I feel free to write about what I’d like to without worrying who will see or what they’ll think of me? why, on tumblr of course. So this is the first of...
Cigarettes and Chocoloate Milk
Everything it seems I like’s a little bit stronger A little bit thicker, a little bit harmful for me
And then there’s those other things Which for several reasons we wont mention Everything about em is a little bit stranger, a little bit harder A little bit deadly
It isn’t very smart Tends to make one part So brokenhearted
Come join me Rufus, I’ve got both
I’m never gonna make any sort of profit if I don’t stop being such a pushover. How am I gonna afford cigarettes for the next month? I need a real fucking job.
Batch number 2, here we go! :)
There is no future, there is no past. I live each moment as my last. There’s only us, there’s only this. Forget regret, or life is yours to miss. No other road, No other way. No day but today.
I can’t control my destiny. I trust my soul, my only goal is just to be. There’s only now, there’s only here. Give in to love, or live in fear. No other path, no other way, No day but today..